There is so much happening in my life right now, I don't know if I could handle any more obstacles. In just a few weeks my life was turned upside down from me losing a job to finding out my grandmother has cancer to my son needing to have two surgeries. It's all overwhelming and it seems like it just keeps getting worse. I'm am trying to keep the faith and stay positive, but it seems hard sometimes. I am constantly listening to Kirk Franklin, "More Than I Can Bare " and "My Life Is Your Hands" to uplift me and give me strength, because I need it. And it's not only Kirk Franklin I'm listeing to help give me courage, strength, faith and inspire me, but others like Smokie Norfork to MaryMary to Yolanda Adams and others. I just need something to help me through these trying times.
My 'turn to' to help through hard times like these isn't just listening to music but my all time favorite is food. I'm an emotional eater and always have been. I turn to food when I'm happy, bored, angry, but especially when I'm depressed which incorporates loneliness, sadness and anxiety. I eat my favorite comfort foods to dull the pain and not think about all that is going wrong. But there's a problem that comes with being an emotional eater and that is I am overweight. So I have to find another outlet to help me through my troubling times. I am not about to start drinking or smoking or during drugs to help me through, so I guess I will turn to my writing and put it all down on paper. I believe by writing about what my family and I are going through will help me to deal and accept what is happening, and get better clarity about. I just know I need to do something to get all these feelings out because it's not healthy to keep them bottled up.
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