It's A Brand New Year!!!!

Today is TuesdayJanuary 2, 2012. We are now two days into the new year and  I have to say I wasn't ready for the new year to come in. I mean if 2012 is going to be anything like 2011 or 2010, or any of the years before then 2011 could just stay. Why am I so critical and pessimistic about the year, where do I begin. First I have been unemployed for the last seven years, to no fault of my own. I have registered with my city's One-Stop Workforce program numerous times and even took the Work Keys test and did very well on the test and recieved a placement standard of  silver which is good. I have applied to numerous job openings and even some companies every year. I have also been to job fairs and have still came up empty. I don't know if it's my resume or that I have filled out the application wrong. Or it might be my lack of experience and education in some areas that I have applied for jobs, and the fact that I don't have a college degree. Don't jump to assumption that I am an uneducated, because that is far from the truth. I have a high school diploma and at least seven years college under my belt. I did attend a historical black college where I majored in English with a minor in Sociology. I also to attend a techincal college where I majored Human Services. In all these majors I did well and even excelled in some of my classes. So as you can see I'm educated and to have a high IQ, so the question is why I do not have a college degree in any of those fields. The answer is simple and complicated. While I was attending Voorhees college, I got pregnant with my son and in my senior year. Which lead to me coming home to have my son. I had a plan to enroll in Greenville Techincal College, which I did. But being a new mom, going to school and working became to stressful for me, which lead to me failing one semester. But I have gotten off the subject of why I'm not ready for 2012 to be her. I have given you the first reason which was my unemployment outlook. The second reason is on the non-existing lovelife. I have not been in a relationship since 2004, when me and my son's father broke up. That means I have not been with anyone sexual for the last seven years. I just haven't felt like opening myself up to anyone, because my son's father hurt me by lying and cheating on me, to where he created two more children with two separate women. After that betrayal I was to hurt and scared to date again. Those are the two main reason why I am not so ready for 2012, because I fear that the year 2011 will repeat itself  for me. I know that I should have a positive outlook on the 2012 new year coming in and I do but, I am cautious also. I am hoping, wishing, praying that the new year of 2012 will be better than 2011 for me in all aspects of my life.