A NEW YEAR, A NEW ME!!!!!

Today is the second day of the New Year, 2013. When 2012 rolled out and 2013 came roaring in I made a declaration to myself and that was, “I would no longer be afraid to live life, and that 2013 was my year and season to step into the person God may need to be”. I have lived my life for too long not being the person I was meant to be, and it not only hurt me but also my son. I have lived my life like a hermit for the past nine years, only coming out for family functions, going shopping and handling personal and professional matters from my son and me. All the other times I stayed secluded to myself locked in my apartment with the door shut and blinds closed. I live this way for nine years and have come to the conclusion this is no way to live life. In order for me to have a productive happy fulfilling life I must get out into the world and live it. I used to live life to the fullest before I had my son 12 years ago, but that all changed after having him. I am not blaming him because he is my world and I love being a mother. It is one of greatest joys and purpose of my life. What I am saying is I could not reconcile the woman I was becoming with being a mother, so I put that woman on the shelf and just became a mother. Now I see that was a mistake because it caused a lot of self doubt and damage to my self-confidence, worth, esteem and value. I now know that I must merge the woman I was becoming with the mother I am now, in order for me to be happy. So 2013, is the merging of Tamika Nakisha Vaughn the mother and woman I was meant to be. It's a brand-new me on a brand-new journey.